gengki the newbie

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Thursday, 20 September 2007

MISSING MY WAISTLINE

Hay naku... nagsukat ako ng mga damit ko na sinuot ko lang 2-3 years ago at hindi na siya kasya. Akalain mo ba naman ang lahat ng sizes ay small at ang waistline ay 25? Pang teeny bopper pa ang katawan.. pang disi ocho pa. Yung paborito kong high waist na palda na binili ko with leila ayun... mumurahin nako kapag umaabot ang zipper sa dulo. Hindi pa uso ang high waist noon naghi-high waist nako... Naiinis lang ako kasi wala na akong masuot at ayoko namang mag shopping spree for new clothes.

I guess i graduated from my teeny bopper roles in life. Kasama pala sa pag exceed ng clothes size ang buhay buhay. Very fashionista meets philosophy. Ewan ko na lang sa mga waify models kung na-apply nila yung sinabi ko. Well, i have to embrace this womanly figure. Curvy with hints of flab and the policewoman puson at times. Noong Renaissance naman gustong gusto nila ang mga womanly-figured women.. think Venus... yung dumating siya on a sea shell.. painting ata ni Leonardo Da Vinci yun or think of Monica Belluci in Malena naked. That's how they like it back then... but then again we're in the 21st Century at hindi Renaissance ngayon. So pasalamatan na lang natin ang purveyors of woman-ness gaya ni Oprah, Tyra Banks and Dove. bwahaha!

Naalala ko lang dati si Kitchie--- my plus sized and very well endowed theatre friend. We were on a beach at kapayatan days ko pa noon. Hiyang hiya siya to wear a bathing suit sa Puerto Galera. Ang philosophy ko lang sa beach: Deadma!

Deadmahin mo ang mga taong nakatingin sayo dahil malakas ang loob mong magladlad ng mga flabs. Insecure lang yan sa mga katawan nila kasi they can NEVER do what you just did... with nonchalant flair pa yan. People can be cruel sometimes you know and the best way to shield yourself away from those cruel minds is to have a killer instinct... kill them mentally with something they wouldn't have the gall to do.. and you see them turn green with envy and they won't get over it... and ikaw... tralalalala... walking on sunshine.

posted by gengcooker at 04:29 | link | comments

Tuesday, 11 September 2007

Dear Diary, (dear diary talaga?)

Umalis na ng Pilipinas ang nakatatanda kong kapatid. Wala lang. Tuwing pasko lang kami nagkikita nun so once a year lang and then all of a sudden nang nalaman ko thru YM sa aking other brother na pupunta siya sa ibang bansa to work medyo nanikip ang dibdib ko at humapdi ang mata ko.

Probably hindi ako sanay na may umaalis sa amin although lahat kami ay mahilig maglayas. Hindi naman kami of the diasporic kind at hindi rin naman kami close knit family pero nagkaroon ng emotional pangs nang malaman naming aalis si D.

Si D pa naman ang masasabi kong defamed sibling. Not really evil or black sheep pero siguro he was the eldest and they expected more from him yet he didn't deliver back then. I guess its his time now and it gets me emotional everytime i think of it. Poodrahbel said D was envious of me because i was asensado na daw and the proof of that was the palm pilot i had 3 or 4 christmases ago. Eh hello? Di ko naman binili yun kasi i won it from a raffle. So techie stuff tells you that you've been made?

D is an architect by the way. He draws really well and is the most gwapo of all my siblings. All the good genes of moodrah and poodrah were bestowed on him---- aquiline nose, fair womanly skin, long lashes, enough height, lean body. Pwede siyang maging bakla pero hindi. He brings home several girlfriends but has stuck with one just recently. Poodrahbel thinks i'm not in good terms with him but we're fine really.

I guess he's out to prove himself and if proving oneself can take you out of one's comfort zones then so be it. Heck, we only have one life to live.

This is me and 2 of my siblings. Ginagawa pa lang yung bunso niyan. Guess which is D.

posted by gengcooker at 16:20 | link | comments (2)

Thursday, 06 September 2007

UWIAN

It's been months since i last set foot in our house. Ayun ganun pa rin. Madami pa ring lamok at kuliglig. Wala pa ring cable TV at sira ang local channels--- di kasi mahilig manood ng TV ang parents ko which is healthy naman. Hindi pa rin uso ang electric fan. Madami pa ring halaman. Galisin pa rin ang aso. Isnabera pa rin ang mga pusa. Puro gulay ang kinakain kasi may pagka wellness spa ang lifestyle ng aking ama. Master's Touch pa rin ang radio station sa umaga kaya pag gising mo para kang nasa lobby ng hotel dahil sa classic music.

Come to think of it, this is actually my home. Kahit gaano pa ka 'weird' ang pamumuhay dito sanay na ako ng ganito and its not that bad as opposed to city living.

Kapag gabi naman umiinom ng vodka kurant ang ama ko at nakikipagkwentuhan sa amin and he's talking shit sometimes but what i like about it is the way he talks to us--- like adults with normal sex drives. And i like it. It makes me feel a part of this world.

Everytime i go home i always look forward to the nightly talks with my brothers and my dad over some vodka kurant. Favorite drink ko na rin yun sa bar. The talks aren't usual too. Last night we talked about our cats and their look alikes when they become humans. One looked like Kevin Spacey and the male cat looked like Nicole Kidman. Taray debah?

KAYA NAGIGING ISNABERA MGA PUSA NAMIN EH.

posted by gengcooker at 15:02 | link | comments

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