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Saturday, 30 May 2009

waiting for it..

 Hmmm...

I'm waiting for my period to come actually. I'm not really the type who keeps a calendar but for a while my body misses it. I'm a regular bleeder and I am actually missing it now. Funny, this is the same feeling i felt before i got pregnant. So am i pregnant? I don't know yet but its a blessing but i think it would be too soon since Musa is just 9months old. It's too early for a second child. And its hard to have a baby during recession. 

I haven't had any major exercise since i gave birth since my OB ordered me, for a year, not to get into my usual physical activity which includes running, tennis and skimboarding!! I still have stretchmarks and i guess no tummy butter would do it since mother nature has bestowed me with stretchmark friendly genes. It's fine. Good thing for one piece swimsuits though my puson is getting a bit on the bulky side because of no physical activity. It really is no walk in the part getting back into shape.

And my skin... argh. It's not that smooth but its not crater like.  Slightly oily with small zits. Skin of the hoi polloi kind. Hahaha. Stop.  Let's not talk about it. I really am insecure about it. My hubby's skin is way better than mine and he has no beauty routine. What the heck!

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I'm currently swamped with writing deadlines with some acting in between and another brainstorming with a  primetime soap in the making. I'm happy with the new  soap since our head has always trusted me to write a week or two even though i'm not really that established or ma-chika. In our line of work, chika is also power. I'm still learning the ropes of making chika especially to people who matter pero it's not really me. I'm glad our head doesn't fully adhere to chika powers to get a break although it may work for others. It's just about good writing and getting noticed that you can write and giving you chance to break in. That's it. Someone higher than you should provide you with chances kasi lahat ng tao ay naghihintay mabigyan ng pagkakataon ipakita ang kaya nilang gawin. People way up there were also given chances kaya sila andun. Kahit gaano pa sila kagaling they still owe it to people who gave them a chance, people who believed in them enough to give them a break.

Thank you Lord for keeping me busy!

Anyway, here's something to perk things up.



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Wednesday, 13 May 2009

Oh, Happy Mums day!



This is Musa when she was barely a month.  She looks like she just came from the beach because of the photo sensory thing. And she's not as cute as babies in commercials look like.  Cuteness came when she started growing up.

I'm a Mom already so happy mother's day to me and to all Moms. Musa is 8 months now and getting noisy every single day. She's beginning to look like me though but with some chinita eyes.

It may sound cliche but she really perks me up and gives me shots of endorphins everytime she smiles at me and finds delight in every silly thing i do in front of her. I am a clown of a Mom and i do performance levels in front of her.




This is her at around 5 months.


Here are some of the things I think i will impart on her:

1. TV is bad. I mean really. Not too much TV is still bad but definitely, even if i work for it, it is BAD.

2.  Money, really, has no value, It's just a means of exchange. Pine for things that cannot be exchanged from you.

3. Do not worry.

4. Pray for the small things that God has given you like nice bedsheets, soft jeans that fit perfectly.

5. You should learn how to say No and have people be cool with it.


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Friday, 08 May 2009

HORROR MOVIE

I'm currently shooting my second movie.

Haha!

It's as if I'm the star but not really. Let's say I am again part of a movie of which I am kind of a star in the way the plot of the film goes. I'm the horror of the movie.  I'm not the lead girl to get chased at or ring her lungs out but i get to have a lot of shots that make the life of the star scary. I'm the multo. Again i'm wearing prosthetics, and it takes somebody like me to wear one for most of the shooting since basically I'm a 'just do it' girl. Hindi ako maarte and i'm not prone to rashes. This is the second time i get to be a multo(ghost) on film but i've been one on some TV shows. The pay is good and it puts food on the table. I get to have minimal acting and the most acting i can do is to shake myself as if crying.  You just won't see my face because i'm supposed to be a decaying bride of a cult leader with a slash on my neck. I'm not complaining really but i ask myself--- when can i see my face on film? My real face. It may take long i guess but i know i will. I'm not really the artistahin type with a small beautiful face fit for mass consumption but, in all honesty, i can act. And i know i'm friekin good at it. 


SOME THOUGHTS:

1. I wish the system of filmmaking here in the Philippines would change for the better. Crew and staff wouldn't be so overworked so they could still function properly and creatively. Kasi how can you create something when all of you are so dead tired and sleepy?! Crew and staff for films work for more than 24 hours!! I mean, we should get a life sometimes.  In the US, film people are paid per hour basis and that you have to work for 8 hours only. They rehearse every detail of the scene and reserve a day just for scenework and rehearsals so that come shooting day things will flow as smooth.

2. I wish everybody in the film crew knows what they are doing or have an idea of what should be done for the lights, the props, the set. I noticed that film crew are just ordered what to do; place this light here and then dim it or put this kind of prop there make it look chic etc. but i don't think they know the intent or purpose of doing what they were ordered to do. If they have an idea of what is to be done then they would be more professional and saves time.

3. I wish that someday there will be  a really big studio as big as a town so local films can recreate scenes inside the comforts of a studio. Like a real street, or a real town, or a real forest  and a real beach all inside a studio.

4. I wish for an actors union in the Philippines. A legit one.

5. I wish that drama/social pricking film genre would be produced more. Nowadays, most films are horror and that romantic comedy stuff all named after some cheesy song. I wish for more movies like Ligaya ang Itawag mo sa akin, Tuhog, Hihintayin Kita sa Langit, Scorpio Nights et al.

6. I wish that some people wouldn't be so yabang or feeling artsy just beacuse they're so into this indie-indie thing and they're filmmakers and so high art that they only hang out with people of their kind and project as if they're some Quentin Tarantino.  They exist and they're the type of people of who wouldn't be caught dead hanging out with common people who are not into arts! Come on you people!! Give yourselves a fuckin break!




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Saturday, 02 May 2009

Bakit ganun?

Bakit may mga taong mahilig manakit ng hayop? Nabasa ko kasi ang isang nag-uumapaw na galit blog ng isang ka-multiply ko about this certain guy from UP Diliman na nakapatay ng kuting sa UP premises. Hindi ko kinakaya na tinatalunan daw niya ang pusang kuting. Naiyak ako ng nalaman kong namatay pala ang pusang iyon. Lumaki kasi kaming  madaming pusa at aso sa bahay at love namin sila na tipong parte na ng pamilya. Kaya naiinis ako sa mga taong ang aarte na akala mo peste ang pusa; yung mga feeling nila mamatay sila matabihan lang sila ng pusa at aso. Nakuuuuuuuu!!!! Napupundi talaga ang utak ko. Oo nga pala, yung pusa namin sa bahay ngayon, si Sharona, buntis na pala kaya maghihintay na lang kami ng mga kuting! Yipeeee!

Bakit may mga taong aprub agad sa kanila ang pagkatao once na malaman nilang anak-mayaman? Nagka-kwentuhan kami ng isa sa mga kamag-anak ko, sa pamilya kasi nila halos lahat ng babaeng nagiging jowa ay hindi nila gusto. Kese hodang hindi maputi ang kutis; kese hodang may tattoo; marunong manigarilyo; independent living; hindi practicing Catholic; hindi Marian devotee at kung ano-ano pang label. Pero isang girl lang daw ang aprub sa kanila---yung Atenistang taga Ayala,Alabang Village na matangos ang hubog ng ilong at nagdri-drive ng CRV. Iyon. Iyon ang gusto nila at walang tanong tanong na ok ang babaeng iyon. Automatic yan. Plus na lang na mabait ang babae. Pero kapag ang girlfriend ay mabait naman, hindi naman kagandahan, morena at nagco-commute parang kelangan pa niyang patunayan ang sarili niya na OK siyang tao. Sa tingin ko, nag-uugat ito sa frusttration at colonial mentality. 


Bakit may mga taong inaasa sa anak ang kanilang financial responsibility? Ito talaga ang malaking tanong sa buhay ko. Ito talaga ang kinapipika ko. At sa mga middle class families pa nangyayari ito ha.  Ang sabi nung isa: kasi ganun talaga sila... hindi lahat ng tao ay kagaya mo. MALING-MALI!! Hindi gobyerno ang mga tao para hindi magawan ng paraan dahil lahat ng bagay may solusyon kung hahanapan mo lang.
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