DEAR GOD,

I saw myself for the first time on film. I got really scared. My fright was anticipated for every scene i knew i am part of. The scariest part is that i'm being viewed by future shapers of the local film industry.  Me and Antoinette arrived late and just in time for our film at UP. My teeth were clenching for every scene that i see myself. Was i ok? Did i look like a probinsyana? How about my nose? I don't look like myself on black and white film. My fanciful delightness for chocolate was imminent. Then the lights turned on and everyone looked happy. French had to listen to her mentors about the film.

For the first time somebody loved me other than You and my Dad. It was real good. The feeling.