THE WAY WE WERE

What a sweet sweet november! They were all here and in restrospect. The official people who made me strong by breaking my heart. They have their own lives right now so is your lolah. I felt like each one had a child of their own in me and suddenly the villages of my heart had an impromptu fiesta in memoriam of all things good, bad, sweet and bitter. It's always this month that new experiences are really in their full chakras.

After 5 years or so, Magellan and i met early this month. My first boyfriend. He discovered me the way the real Magellan discovered our homeland. We were both 17 and stupid. and pa-cool. and pa-mature.

When we met up in Makati my smile couldn't be contained. I'm laughing at myself for having to meet my so-called first boylet who really had the guts to withstand me during my post-angst days. He was still cute and had an air typical of a Lasalista. He still had his car which I thought then would be his instrument of death the moment we broke up. For the past week he'd been meeting up with all his exes. Just checking which one of them would give him the butterflies. I gave him some flies. He said he can't forget an iskandalo i made in front of him and his classmates while they were studying. I made an iskandalo? But how? How could i do such an act? He stressed that I did. Well, that was crazy old college me. I'm different now. People change. NOT! We laughed about it so hard I had to go the washroom since my sipon is insisting to see him as well. I told him a personal fact that he was my first boy. After that rendezvous, I felt old.

Now if Magellan discovered me, this boy is the Miguel Lopez de Legaspi--- the conqueror. Yes. I admit. This boy really had me clenched and sinking ocean deep. He popped into my crazed college existence and popped out before i knew it. He suddenly popped again while on last supper with Gilgamesh. Paulie suddenly became restless since we, somehow, shared this very strange, enchanting boy. He just dropped by to give me shirt and that's it. A lot of people reacted why? Why now? Well, he just wanted to give a shirt. That's all. It's not as if he's proposing to me.

"I hate it when you act mature" Paulie blurted out.

Some people sensed that it wasn't just about the shirt. Probably he came in just to check if i was still head over heels for him or maybe he just wanted to get rid of the shirt. Do you still love him? I loved him. That's in the past tense. What I have with him are misty water colored memories as Barbra would put it.

Now, let's eat dinner.