REVOLUTION

He saw me wear this picture pendant of the Siddhartha. I said my Dad nicknamed me after the Enlightened One. I think i purchased it just for the sake of that memory but it doesn't even enlighten my path to the right way. Poodrahbel had a dream that he saw light when Moodrahbel was pregnant with yours truly. I was named after light and it pains me that i don't have it. I have become estranged as everyone is. A part of my job makes me want to be eaten up by the earth. You meet people who seem to have their candles burned by their own doing. I can't even find a wick. Thank you for the desperation.

What am i doing lately? I saw old college friends and talked about this mind inducing film of Monica Bellucci. Well, i talked about it before that i had a rape scene during one of my acting stints. Ok, i knew that what i went through was a rape scene but in this film, La Bellucci was sucked out from all the good things life has to give. And it was just a rape scene. After seeing that scene for like 7-10minutes, i had this reflex to text my girlfiends to go home RIGHT NOW! And the last part says Time destroys all things. And the Diva has begun.

Oh, on the good side of the platter. I wore face prosthetics for Rodolfo. Hehe. My blood was green and i had to wear a size 25 corset from 8pm to 7am the following day. The corset was such an ass, the prosthetics tested my pores and my eyes because i cannot even rest. And all i did was walk and stare frightfully. Rodolfo wanted to see me as a finished product from Tales of the Crypt and looked at me with loving eyes, the way a director would look at her prized muse.. hehe... too bad he's gay. Just modelling skills and no acting involved until 7am when they asked me to cry. Uh-oh...  We'll see about that. I am no push button here but we'll make an effort. Ahh, i remembered all the boys who hurt me. And i became a faucet. Thanks to them. They seem to help me indirectly up to now.