IN A U.S.T. STATE OF MIND

I am a well-bred catholic school girl. I've been with the Carmelites and the RVM sisters and of course, the Dominican priests. But i am not a practicing catholic. I believe in God and i know God believes in me. I talk to Him as if He's just around. I even throw tantrums but i say sorry after. I am simply not a fan of churches and chapels and all those ceremonials. 3 of my immediate family members are protestants. And thank God our Team won in the UAAP.

I've had this lukewarm relationship with some officials before when i was still studying. They would never allow us to mount a play with certain themes that they think do not suit the Catholic ideals. Ah, so no more plays about gay priests and rape scenes and the language must be injected with hints of catholicism. And it should be all about family and happiness and no more about poverty and taong grasa and ugliness and all those dramatic elements. Man, I so hate UST for that. 

Back then, there was this group of students from UP Theatre Arts who interviewed me on the state of campus theatre in UST. It wasn't an interview when they asked me about it. It was a rant and a call to action as if  i was an ANAKBAYAN being plundered for my beliefs against the system. But what can i do? I was just a student. A micro bacteria in the macrocosm of silent frustrations hurled against the University.

But i love UST. Just love it and everything that happened to me there. Poodrahbel, who is from UP, was frustrated when i didn't get in his alma mater. I'm like... Who cares?

Just now, i came from there. Watched a play from our former org. Went to a coffeeshop in T. Morato and saw my first Thomasian boyfriend. My boss, who is encouraging me to write, is from UST---- a very popular alumni. My main boss is also from UST. The one who gives me my allowance at work is from UST. The person i live with is from UST. My good good friends are from UST. The people i like working with are all from UST and some UP.   

I realized some Ateneans are arrogant. Of course, not everybody, but Ateneans i've worked with have this air around them that they should be doing this part.  And the part should be important and should sound nice. Probably they were injected by the Jesuits to be like that. I don't know. Though i so love Tito Boy.

But we still won. And that is just so sweet.