GOING BACK

Most of what i am proud today is the fact that i got a call back audition from a production that will make another film. I thought iwas losing it; this acting groove i got ever since kinder. I am a nervous freak when it comes to auditions for plays or for films but i like the feeling of it--- uncertainty.

As usual auditions always start with tell me about yourself stuff. My usual entrada would be to tell my name and my nick name and how it is spelled with a G and not with a J. I am always particular with my nickname being spelled the right way kundi rin lang just call me by my family name.

And then  they asked me what would be my dream role. My face lights up because i have always a ready answer for the past 8 years and that is to be Mary Magdalene of Jesus Christ Superstar or Eva Peron of Evita. Wow. Cultured. Musical role. So do you know how to sing? Goes the gay guy. Those kinds of questions get me fidgety, of course everybody knows how to sing but to what extent is your understanding of singing? I sing in a karaoke, would that be a proper answer for a girl in an audition? Well, i told him that we were trained to sing during my PETA days and i think i picked something up. Okay. Sing for us. Uh-oh. I sang a Levi Celerio piece but the director asked me to stop and told me to sing a song that meant a lot to me. Ohkay... and i belted out the first few lines of Could we Start Again Please? Then the gay guy commented about how'd they end up with people auditioning for a musical... i don't know what that means but i think it was a compliment.

Improvisation. My favorite game during my active theatre days. They asked me to improvise a scene using 5 phrases in Ilocano dialect. I was escorted outside to think of a scene but then i felt there was something wrong.  I don't know but i think i suddenly became rusty. Anyway, i did a scene but it wasn't with much panache.

They texted me for another set of auditions. And the gay guy told us that we were the best and the ones being considered for roles. Hay. When was the last time i heard a collective artistic compliment where i know i am part of the group. And the call back auditions were more ok as i got directions from the director on what is the scene about and i get to ask actors' questions too. I'm still not sure if they will get me but i liked the experience.

I like auditions. It's like a throwing out party.