SPONTANEITY

After being molested inside a car up comes a day where you don't know what you are going to do. For the whole day yesterday i felt blood coming out of me because of my menstruation and everytime i walk... gosh. And for the past two days i'm sitting, lying, staring at the computer and checking out friendster acoounts. What a wasted day for someone who used to cut up weeds in the mountains.

I haven't been eating healthy food too. Last sunday my unhealthy eating led me to feel dizzy while jogging around UP Diliman And i get all these emails about healthy eating, benefits of bananas and things about cancer .

I am bugged up for 2 days and i can't do a thing. It was my choice anyway. I had work but i chose not to work. I chose to lie in bed, think of nothing and then suddenly i dozed off. I wake up up with a really bad headache because i realized everytime i stayed still, i was dozing off.

I am supposed to go to Ifugao this week but things came up and i don't get my Trip. I already bought water and apples for me to munch on my 10 hour ride to Ifugao province.  I even borrowed Lebanis' digicam and Park's memory card for the photos i'll be taking on the way.  And the fucking part is the apples that i bought tasted so grainy as if i was eating sand.

Yesterday the same thing happened, in my moments of staying still i feel that i dozed off and then suddenly my eyes became wide awake and i knew that i was fighting myself not to sleep again and make my day a wasted lot. I am not sleepy but why is this happening to me?

Kitsi wanted to go to Makati Cinema Square to buy pirated DVDs. I went with her and that's what i did for the whole day. Go to Makati, buy DVD, blew my last bit of cash to treat Kitsi for a Mongolian thing (which i think was healthy because of the brocolli) and to watch BORAT. I even saw a high school batchmate whose boyfriend she introduced looks like Marilyn Manson minus the clown make-up.

I come home. I found out that Frenchy is deciding to go to Uganda or something like that near KENYA. J is flying back this Sunday in Manila from Belgium. Oh and this guy i confessed to my undying love--- he found a new girl that he liked.

Tralalala... lala...