DEAR KISSER,

Hi, this is the right moment to talk something about kissing. I'm hearing Des'ree's Kissing You song. Such a wonderful song not necessarily related to the act of kissing but the song just kisses me smack into a fine idea. It makes my bones turn into a carnival of saccharine delusions.

I want to be kissed. Yes, i do. Its one of the best things that i enjoy more than making love and shitting. 2 nights ago, i had this sudden attack of restlessness. Tossing and turning in every angle a chair can occupy my butt. I was desperately looking for beer--- a strong one. I kept biting my nails and eating little shards of skin from it. I get the shivers. I have to bend my back down as a form of surrender to what i really want to do. I breathe in deep and breathe out in counts with you not knowing so you can't calculate what i need at that moment.  Because i badly need to be kissed.

Yes! YES! A kiss. Not on the friekin forhead like what my poodrhabel did after he said mean things to me. Not the beso beso, plastic or not, that you get from friends. Not just a friekin smack on the lips as if that would make the germs on the tongue excite. I want to be kissed. Brush my lips to yours and yours to mine. Look you in the eye like seeing a red traffic light. Eclipse the eyes and thrust my half body.  No tongue yet but it will come. Its gonna be sweet and tender. Mouth and mouth with a little snorting involved and counted breaths. And then the revolution. The tongue. Perfect.

So it's all in my head. It's really good to daydream of kissing. But before that and all that, i have to get a fucking beer. Make my innards support me to this heavenly execution of human interaction. At least it will make me stop biting my cuticles. And make me think of advancing myself though i know you are supposed to do that. But what a liberation if i, whom you never thought would do, will do it. And so i began. Leave everything for a moment. The song in my head. Spit out the grinded cuticles. Pucker up and then look at you straight. And stop.

I was successful.