DEAR DEAR LIFE

Oh, look at what life has offered me recently...ewan ko ba... it disappoints me at times to know how some people can be so... i can't find the words. so i'll put this in a question: What do you do with people who judged you at first and now forgot about what they did and are within your parameters of daily life? It's not similar to first impressions like i thought you were a bitch but then ok ka pala so we get along well now. It's more than that. What do you do with people who didn't treat you what is deserving of you back then and now act as if everything's alright?

i just can't get over it right now. This can be bad for my health but i simply can't lie to my systems and just turn over a leaf like that. And people close to me know that. If you sit me with THAT person in the same table then it's like you seated her next to a corpse. That's how cold it gets there. Yeah yeah i have to forgive and just move on about all those incidents so i guess my moving on meant not being on the bus with them or probably running  them over with the moving on part. hahaha!

Ako pa naman si Ms. Happy Happy Joy Joy pero minsan nagiging Ms. Antarctica. At times na contradict ko rin ang mga sinasabi ko regarding this part of my dilemma. Kasi di ba they're the ones who didn't give me a chance to have a clean slate because of presumptions about me at dahil diyan bad shot na sila sa akin forever? What about their slates? So i'm not giving them a chance to have their redemption? Pero sila naman ang nauna eh at dahil doon iyon na ang naging image ko about them so i'll do away with their chances of proving na hindi sila ganun? Hindi ko alam. May lamat na kasi. Hindi na rin naging maganda ang exeprience ko with them at first and honestly i didn't really deserve it. It was something new to me.

In the house where i grew up, we were taught to decipher the bad tomatoes from the good not just by looking at it.

Tao lang ako.