YEARS and HOPE

I think i am becoming a boring person. If not only for the one thing that i am 'carrying' right now, then i would be such a bore of a person. Nothing much is happening and i feel stagnation. If i become another person and i see myself probably i wouldn't find myself interesting to talk to in a crowd. I wear clothes that i think are too safe and somehow, i realized, i have been out to impress people i don't even like at all. It's a very pathetic situation: buying things you don't need and impressing people you don't like. What the heck. What can i do about these things?

I hope when this comes... this great BIG thing from up above.., a new and exciting leaf will turn over. I will take on a role i have only taken in film and theatre. It's exciting. I hope this will breathe new life for me amidst all the grown up situations i am thrown into now. I hope time won't kill the kid in me. I hope this will bring in a surge of energy and zest for life and things won't be as conventional as before.

We'll be moving to a new place and i'm excited to decorate it. and put every artistic and ala Little House on the Praire touch on it. I hope this will begin the beguine.